Happy Birthday / Mandy (sister) Happy Birthday Richard Lots of &
Reflection/ Yvonne Proctor (mum)
Another day for you to wonder, another day for you mourn. It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn. My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head. It wasn't my intention to go without words said. My frame of mind appeared normal, or so i heard them say. It wasn't my intention not to see another day. I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain. It wasn't my intention to never see you again. Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure. It wasn't my intension to suddenly close life's door. If only i could give you a reason and brush away the tears. It wasn't my intension to leave you and not stay. I did not mean for you to grieve in pain, now left alone to cry. It wasn't my intension to leave you, forever asking WHY. As burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart. It wasn't my intension to tear your soul apart.
Memories/ Yvonne Proctor (mum)
If we could have alife time wish. A dream that could come true, we'd pray to God with all our hearts for yesterday and you. A thousand word's can't bring you back we know, because we have tried... Neither a thousand tears we know, because we have cried... You left behind our broken hearts And happy memories too... But, we never wanted memories We only wanted you!
Richard..."i'm free" / Yvonne (mum) Don't grieve for me, for now i'm free. I'm following the path God has laid you see. I took His hand when i heard Him call, I turned my back and left it all. I could not stay another day. To laugh, to love, to work and play. Tasks left undone must stay that way. I have found peace at the close of the day. If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembered joys. A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss. Oh yes, these things i too will miss. Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full, i savored much. Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch. Prehaps my time seemed all too brief. Don't lengthen it with undue grief. Lift up your hearts and peace to thee. God wanted me, he has set me free!
In My Mind / Amanda Burke (sister)
In My Mind
Somewhere in my dreams tonight I'll see you standing there You look at me with a smile "Life isn't always fair"
You say you were chosen for his garden His preciously hand picked bouquet "God really needed me, That's why I couldn't stay"
It's said to be that Angels Are sent from above I've always had my Angel My brother - whose heart was filled with love
Wherever the ocean meets the sky There will be memories of you and I When I look up at that sky so blue All I see are visions of you "While there's a heart in me, you'll be a part of me."
5 Long Years. / Yvonne Laura's Mum (Friend)Read >>
5 Long Years. / Yvonne Laura's Mum (Friend)
Richard you are a beautiful soul who is sadly missing from the lives of those who love you and their lives are so greatly affected by the lack of you. If you can touch your family's lives in any way they will be so grateful for the sign. xxxx Close
A message that Steph sent in the early days of his / An Early Message From Hi Sspecail Friend Read >>
A message that Steph sent in the early days of his / An Early Message From Hi Sspecail Friend
Richard was one of those people who made a lasting impression. He was someone you would be proud to say you knew and someone who you'd be proud to take home to your mum. He would have done anything for anyone and when heart of gold is mentioned i think of Richard every time. Richard did and always will have a special place in my heart i only wish i could have been there for him like he was for me. My love friendship and everlasting memory Stephaniex x x x
On the day God took you I thought that I would die I wondered where the time went I asked alot of whys? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort I couldn't seem to hide. I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here I thought "This can't be happening" As I wiped another tear. On the day that you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again I wondered if the pain would end. But mostly I wondered when?? It's hard to be without you At times the days seem long Sometimes I just sit crying When there's really nothing wrong I wish we'd had more time Before your life was done. I hope you're resting peacefully My precious one.
SWEET DREAMS Sweet dreams are all I have of you they're all you left behind. Those cherished lovely memories never again to find. On earth you were so wonderful no child could I compare To all the love you gave to me you were so meek so rare. Sweet dreams they keep me going through the long and lonely night How I wish that I could hug you here and squeeze you oh so tight. If I could walk to Heaven dear to see you every day Just know I'd never want to leave I know I'd long to stay. We parted here on earth my child but God's will shall be done Then dreams will be reality for once more we'll be one. I love you for eternity forever and some more Because you were the sweetest child the kindest and most pure. If Heaven's full of Angels like you were here on earth I thank the Lord for lending you for giving me your birth One day my child I'll see you there so please look out for me You'll see my smile so wide before you see my spirit free. God takes the sweetest Angels first this we know is true For He came here and looked around my darling He chose you!
You took my hand You showed me how You promised me you'd be around Uh huh That's right I took your words And I believed In everything You said to me Yeah huh That's right
If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong I know better Cause you said forever And ever Who knew
Remember when we were such fools And so convinced and just too cool Oh no No no I wish I could touch you again I wish I could still call you friend I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now 'fore they're long gone I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong They knew better Still you said forever And ever Who knew
Yeah yeah I'll keep you locked in my head Until we meet again Until we Until we meet again And I won't forget you my friend What happened
If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong and That last kiss I'll cherish Until we meet again And time makes It harder I wish I could remember But I keep Your memory You visit me in my sleep My darling Who knew My darling My darling Who knew My darling I miss you My darling Who knew Who knew
I can tell by reading here what your mum has written and others you were a very lucky young man. You were one of those people who had freinds and enjoyed them all. You had a secrete to tell and maybe noone was there to listen but God. I hope and pray that you can let your mum know what that was and maybe with your help she can spread the word and maybe help some one elses sonshine before it is too late.
Did you feel that gentle breeze Just brush across your cheek? That was me...I'm not gone.
~♥~
When the leaves start to fall Gently drifting down And a blanket of colours covers the ground Watch - and you'll see them moving around. That was me...I'm not gone.
~♥~
When you go outside in the morning And hear the birds welcome the new day They are singing a special song for you From me...I'm not gone.
~♥~
If you pay attention and open your eyes and your ears and your heart I will send you signs that we are not apart I am still with you...I'm not gone.
~♥~
And when your time on earth Nears it's endyou will find me waiting with open arms to greet you. And you will know that I never left I'm right here waiting...I'm not gone.
just thinking / Steph (Friend)
Hi Rich
I sometimes feel a bit daft talking to you at the church but somehow feel closer putting it down on here because its as if you read this but you might not hear me anywhere else. For some reason just a little note as i light a candle for you wasn't enough today so forgive me as i let you into my little head full of thoughts.
For the first time today it felt strange to think you were 21. I think of 21 so young and it doesn't feel right that you are somehow younger than me :)
But then rich there is nothing right about that at all you should be here with us all. I often think about what we would be like now and how everything from our uni years would be a distant memory.
I think about uni and associate it with not very good times and even when i go through fallowfield or indeed oxford road at all the pit of my stomach goes but then thinking that it was me being at uni was how i met you it almost al seems worthwhile.
I cant help but wonder whether we would still be in touch i often think about you when i see corrie and see sean and yes before you think it i know you Werner gay but you had such great fashion sense and wouldn't feel shy telling me what you thought sense of humour and the knowledge that i could almost walk around in my underwear and even share a bed and not feel awkward around you was something that i loved about the friendship we had.
I often feel guilty when i think of you because i should have spent more time with you in the last few months you were here and i know there were plenty of ifs and but that we can not change but the guilt does not go away because although my life goes on each day with reeve lewis work and play there are those closest to you that still struggle each day.
i often feel i should pick up the phone more or take that drive down the priness parkway or m60 and make the effort but our lives just get so preoccupied by so much. I suppose thats my only defense because i feel thats how we were or at least i was before you went away you were always in my thoughts and on my list of things to do but it didnt mean i didnt care or did not want to just.... well i dont know!
I guess i just thoughts there would always be tomorrow or next week and even when i got 'that 'phonecall from your mum i was on my way to see you because i had had an argument with reeve ( on our 1st anniversary) and despite not seeing you for a while i knew you would have been there for me like i would have been for you!...How wrong i could have been.
If only i knew then what i knew now is often a line we use but one that means more true with you. Despite you not being here on earth with us all Rich i know you will never be forgotten by those around you that love care and remember you for all the wonderful things that made you YOU!
21 forever sweet cheeks and keep the sunshine coming for the summer.
All my love today tomorrow next week and forever
Your very dear friend
Steph xoxoxoxox Close
Ill Always Remember You With Love ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I try to think of happy times But i still feel so down I don't want to have to remember My smile is replaced by a frown ♥ .•**•.. ♥ .•**•.. ♥ .•**•.. ♥ .•**•.. ♥ .•**•.. ♥
Special days are hardest When your not here to share Yes i have good friends And they're always here to care ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
But i just want you back Back where you belong Your in heaven now And it just seems so very wrong ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Please forgive my tears They fall when i think of you I know you wouldn't like it Do you feel it too? ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I promise i will try And stay strong just for you I know this is what you would want You wouldn't want me blue ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
There's one thing that keeps me going It keeps so strong inside Its the belief Ill meet you again In heaven where you reside
While you lay I will keep you in sight Watching you sleep I’m the angel of night While you dream I keep the wicked at bay. ~♥~ I am black as the night With eyes bright as day Now don’t worry your head Cause I’m here to stay. ~♥~ You know me so well Yes I am the strong That sings you to sleep With my symphony song. ~♥~ As you drift away I'll wrap you up tight I told you before I’m the angel of night. ~♥~