RICHARD

PETER

JOHNSON

                       You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away... 

If only ..... A phone call from heaven.

Ring ring ring
Yvonne: Hello?

Richard: Mum, Its Richard!

Yvonne: Who is this ... why are you doing this to me?

Richard: Mum its me, remember you said you never wanted to talk to
me again?

Yvonne: Richard is this really you?

Richard: yes mum its me, i love you mum and am sorry for all the
pain, i
know now you never meant to say those's words...... But mum, please
listen there
was so much going on in my life that i could not see any other way
out of it!

Yvonne: I never meant to hurt you Richard, i love you with all my
heart and
soul, as i do your brothers and sisters!

Richard: i know, i knew that then ... but i could not stop any
longer, i
needed to go!

Yvonne: my life is so empty, i am not the same person WE need you
back in
our lives in body and spirit! You are so missed my sonshine so missed!

Richard: Mum i am with you all the time, more than when i was on
earth, you
think of me every hour of the day!
You did not when i was on earth!

Yvonne: Do you Forgive me?

Richard: mum there is nothing to forgive! I know you love me and i
love you
mum..... I am sorry, but my new friends need to use the phone as
well, theirs
mum and Dads need to know they are ok as i am. I love you mum and my
Dad, and
my Brothers and Sisters, and the nieces ... and billy and Ruby who
have come
since i left Earth!

Yvonne: my sonshine i love you

Richard: Mum, i love you, and will be waiting when your turn
comes..... bye
mum byeeeee 


                    
Search for Me.

I will never let you go.

*A ray of sunshine*

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Richard Johnson who was born in United Kingdom on November 12, 1982 and passed away on August 28, 2004 at the age of 21. We will remember him forever.
He is my son , he is deep within my heart, and i miss him so.
My sonshine.
As long as i have breath in me he shall be remebered.
If you visit Richard's site, please leave a candle lit for him, it matters not if you did not know him personally .... But it is treasured by his family, that others take the time to leave a message for us.

Any one who was Loved can never be lost or forgotten.
And Richard, you live on for ever in our memories, always in our hearts.

*
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there .
Richard ..... you always thought of, and loved as much as ever.
Forever in my heart Sonshine.
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there .



We will never know the reason 'WHY' Richard ended his life, we can only guess and blame ourselves for not seeing his distress and pain.
All i know is the pain and anguish that is left behind.
We can never bring 'my sonshine' back, we are left with the memories of his being here.



On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one 

 
 "It remains a wound which i carry with me,
it lies deep and cannot be healed.After years it will be the same as the first day."

Richard, is my sonshine, he's my rainbow.
We are all left heart broken and sad.
But happy to have had 'Sonshine' in our lives.
His smile and gentle ways are so very missed.
Richard's memory lingers on in our hearts.
Long after the light has gone out........




 A Letter to mum from heaven.



Mum, please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.

We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it’s not many years
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.

I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you know.

Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there’s nothing I can do.

But I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand. 



Really Gonna Miss You
by Smokey Robinson
Really gonna miss you
Its really gonna be different without you
Time is going to be hard and slow
For the rest of my life
Gonna be thinking about you
Yes I am
Time came when you had to go
I'll miss you my buddy
I'll miss you my friend
I promise my love for you will never end
In your finest hour I was there with you
And without you things won't be the same
But there's a higher power that we answer to
And you heard him calling your name
Really gonna miss you
Everything about you your smiling face
I know you want us all to be strong
Really gonna miss you
I know your going to that magic place
Singing you a brand new song
I'll miss you my buddy
I'll miss you my friend
I promise my love for you will never end
Really Gonna Miss Youuuuuuuuuu 
*******

For Michael Amanda Mark and carrie
Richard's older brothers and Sister.

*
Brother and sister together will make it through,
Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there.
I know you've been hurting but I'll be waiting here for you,
And I'll be there just helping you out whenever I can. 

^i^


*******

Please help keep his memory alive by adding Tributes, Legacy's, Memories and Stories. 

^i^

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: 'what!
you, too? I thought I was the only one." 
And Richard ....You were a friend to many.

*Richard*
"He was the friend you always wanted to have.
He was always there when you needed him and he extended his hand of friendship to everyone he met."
*



Richard ,should be remembered for the life he lived, for the Joy, Love and Laughter he brought to so many people.

 
*

A beautiful ray of sonshine.

*



                                                       

         Could I have Change Your Mind?


Would one more hug and "I love you"

Make you change your mind?


Would giving encouragment more often

Make you change your mind?


Would realizing it's not just 'youthful years'

Make you change your mind?


Would listening closer to what you say

Make you change your mind?


Would asking for your opnion more

Make you change your mind?


Would spending more time together

Make you change your mind?


Would going back and doing things differently

Make you change your mind?


Would answering your last phone call

Make you change your mind?


Would coming there when you were missing

Make you change your mind?


Would seeing how many people said good-bye

Make you change your mind?


Would knowing the pain I feel now

Make you change your mind?


Is there anything I could have said or done

To make you change your mind?


I'll always wonder and never know

If I could have changed your mind ...... there will always be a question mark there!

              Names On Stone 

What do they tell?
Letters strung together as words

Immortalizing death?

Names of Stone

What do they reveal?

The smiles and laughter ?

Or the tears and pain endured?



Names of Stone

What do they say?

Birth dates and ending dates

Represent years of life but not the richness



Names Of Stone

What do we see?

Words to be read outloud or quietly

By the ones only on this side of life



Names of Stone

What do we feel?
Cold and hard to the touch

Those Letters do not divulge our grief


Names of Stone
Do not tell the stories

Of the lost one we mourn

Of birth and of death and the years inbetween



Names Of Stone

Some fancy, some plain

Some large, some small

But none tell the world

Of our love that goes on forever



Names Of Stone

Engraved, carved, etched and stamped

So many decisions and choices to make

To show our loved one’s resting place

Only in this world



Names of Stone

So final and ending yet no closure is found

Our hearts continue to bleed

Yet now the ‘words are etched in stone’



Now a Name In Stone says

Richard Peter Johnson
Nov 12th 1982- 28th Aug 2004
Always loved
Beautiful son, brother and Grandson, uncle and cousin.
Always in our hearts & memories.




The power of a word

Some words are whisperd quietly

Some words avoided altogether

And some words change lives - forever


One act and one word has changed my life

I am now a survivor who did not chose to be

One who has been left behind

By a loved one who took his own life


SUICIDE - has changed me

SUICIDE – has changed our families

SUICIDE – has changed how friends react

SUICIDE – has changed how my life goes on

SUICIDE – has educated me

SUICIDE – took my son and broke my heart

SUICIDE – has power as a word

SUICIDE - the word no one wants to hear


It is the power of the word – SUICIDE 


On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one